Living underwater.

Friday is my favourite day of the week.
It has nothing to do with the Quran verse below.
Just something I'd like to share :)

In the name of Allah, the most gracious, the most merciful.

15-مَن كَانَ يُرِيدُ الْحَيَوةَ الدُّنْيَا وَزِينَتَهَا نُوَفِّ إِلَيْهِمْ أَعْمَالَهُمْ فِيهَا وَهُمْ فِيهَا لاَ يُبْخَسُونَ

أُوْلَـئِكَ الَّذِينَ لَيْسَ لَهُمْ فِى الاٌّخِرَةِ إِلاَّ النَّارُ وَحَبِطَ مَا صَنَعُواْ فِيهَا وَبَاطِلٌ مَّا كَانُواْ يَعْمَلُونَ-16

Whosoever desires the life of the world and its glitter, to them We shall pay in full (the wages of) their deeds therein, and they will have no diminution therein.-15-

They are those for whom there is nothing in the Hereafter but Fire, and vain are the deeds they did therein. And of no effect is that which they used to do.-16-

Do read the previous post, because it has something to do with this one.

Blablabla. Everyone's talking bout it already but I still wna tot talk about it too.

This post was written in the sengal + bengang mood, which results to a very dull post.

Kan da kene qurantine. Believe it or not, the college has announced that it will be closed/ shut down for one week. Ironically, it has came up with it's own definition of "qurantine".

They decided to qurantine EVERYONE staying in the college, which means, those who are living in the hostel. That we are not allowed to at all go out of the college compound, which also means that we've to 100% rely on the cafe food for a week. A week of 7 torturous days.

(cafe food = sucks)

But, lectures and classes are to continue as usual. PELIK. sebab, the lecturers are all staying outside. And of lectures are to continue, aren't prone to be infected too? Ke lecturers kebal?

One more thing, because lectures and classes are still going on (apakah la), they do not allow us to go back, unlike other ip-s and ipta-s around the nation. Lagi la sengal. At least, if they would allow us to go back, takderla kehidupan miserable camni.

See, pelik la college ni.

Dah la food in the mini pantry is detereorating. Maner nak cari food lapar ni. Cafe jauh, lagi limited, lagi tak sedap.

This is only day 2, and I already feel very, very tedious.

I just realized that my February-July 2008 posts aren't in my blog anymore.

Kemanakah? Adoi. Susahnyer...

Anyways, tomorrow's the first day at school. I am happy to say that I am EXTREMELY excited about it. Sangat2.

I'll be going to St. Thomas, which is one of the town school here in kuching. It's actually an all-boys school. Last froday we went tp check out the school. Since it's in the heart of Kuching, it's not very big,-it's so small that it doesn't even have a field. But,what it does have is a basketballcourt, which I am very ecstatic about. Sungguh excited lagi happy ni.

... It's funny when I read my posts on the first few months of being in this course. Banyak betul critiscism and dislikes yang telah dipaparkan melalui my previous posts. And, somehow, sekarang da sangat bersyukur and happy to be in this course. He has probably opened up my heart for this.

Even though it is not as grand as other people's field of work, it is still an important one. This might sound poyo, but I do want to be good in the things I do. hopefully, this is the right field to channel my 'inner strength' yang lame dah ter-kept, locked inside.

Man, my English is awful, so is my BM.

A professor began his class by holding up a glass with some water in it.He held it up for all to see and asked the students, "How much do you think this glass weighs?"

"50 grams... 100 grams... 125 grams... ", the students answered.

"I really don’t know unless I weigh it, said the professor, but, my question is: What would happen if I held it up like this for a few minutes?"

"Nothing!", the students replied.

"Ok! What would happen if I held it up like this for an hour?",the professor asked.

"Your arm would begin to ache", said one of the students.

"You’re right, now what would happen if I held it for a day?"

"Your arm could go numb; you might have severe muscle stress and paralysis and have to go to hospital for sure!", ventured another student; and all the students laughed.

"Very good. But during all this, did the weight of the glass change?", asked the professor.

"No!" the students replied.

"Then what caused the arm ache and the muscle stress?", the students were puzzled.

"Put the glass down!", said one of the students.

“Exactly!” said the professor. "Life’s problems are something like this. Hold it for a few minutes in your head and they seem okay. Think of them for a long time and they begin to ache. Hold it even longer and they begin to paralyze you. You will not be able to do anything".

......
It's important to think of the challenges/problems in our life, but it is even more important to to trust in Allah.

Problems give us headaches and sometimes, cause us to dwell into intranquility. Therefore, in order for us to gain back the peacefullness that has lost (damai yang hilang, sgt kebetulan), which is by putting trust in Allah.Tranquility is sign of strong faith while worries and stress is sign of weak faith.

“He it is who sent down tranquility into the hearts of the believers that they might have more faith added to their faith.”

Tell to your mind every day before you go to sleep:

“O soul that is at rest satisfied. Return to your Lord well-pleased (with Him), well-pleasing (Him). So, enter among My servants, and enter into my Paradise.” Qur’an 89:27-30

Don't turn your life into hell by worrying so much.

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

Doomed are they who judge by conjecture. .8. who are deeply engrossed in ignorance and heedlessness. .9. They ask, "When will be the Day of Retribution?" It will be when they are punished at the Fire. .10. (It will , be said to them: ) "Now taste your mischief. .11. This is the same which you were seeking to be hastened. .12. The righteous, .13. however, shall be among gardens and water springs that Day, and shall be joyfully receiving what their Lord shall give them. .14. They were doers of good even before the coming of this Day: they slept but little in the night, .15. prayed for forgiveness in the early hours of dawn, .16. and in their possessions was a due share of him who asked and of him who was needy. .17.

CERITA TIADA BERKAITAN DENGAN HIDUP MAHUPUN MATI

All of her years, she knew herself. She knew who she was, her strengths and weaknesess. She had been in all sorts of situation and up untill last april, she had managed to get them under control. However, when something happened in mid april, she seemed to be all over the place. She seemed lost.

Of course the journey of the process was one hell of a good one, but she managed to put herself together after loads of failure. Later when it was near to the examination week, she started studying with her friends. Her friends were her companions, the place she shed her tears, their shoulders were hers when she needed them. Soon, she was able to smile and make goofy jokes again.

But that only happens when she is with her friends. Once the door was closed, so does the smile on her face. There was always tears, there was always frustration. And the examination was a few days away.

During the examination week, she thought that she could do all the paper. Not saying that she was able to answer all questions correctly, it's just that Alhamdulillah, she said, it was with the help from Him that she was able to recall all the things that she learnt during the lecture.

After the exam, the stream of tears reduced. From 2 pails to only 1 pail. Orang cakap, change is hard, but one can do it slowly, with time as an aqcuaintance. And so, she changed slowly.

.....................................

As the new semeter starts, she returned with a new spirit and new outlook on life. With the only aim in mind, she wishes to do well in her studies and be happy all the time. Because, elanor roosevelt once said, no one can make you feel inferior without your consent. and her sister said, no one has the right to make you feel sad except your mother because she's the one who has been working her guts out, to raise you up. Thus she returned, with her new self....and she got her results for the previous semester

The result of the exam:

As she had expected, it would be worst than her previous exam. even though she got just a little better than what she had expected, the result is still dissapointing.

And she pondered, why the hell did she let that stupid stuff get into her way?

Why did she ever think about those silly stuff, when her future is at stake?

How could she even dare to think that she should flunk the exam?

Didn't she think about her mom?

Unfortunately, sesal dahulu pendapatan, sesal kemudian tiada berguna. All that she can do is just dont look back and continue to look forward.

And as we walk, we must make pledge that we shall march ahead. We cannot turn back.

A hungry man is an angry man.
Life's toooo short to get angry all the time. Go out and find something to laugh about.

Very oftenly, we would choose to let our emotions take control. Like the control you have in your hands to hold the skipole so that you can balance yourself. so that you can push off the snow when skiing. that kind of control. Or like a car steering that controls the direction of the tires of the cars.

Be it happiness or sadness, or even hatred, we let it get into our head most of the time. The hatred, the loathe. Into our head.

Uncontrolled emotions vvery oftenly leads to uncontrolled actions/ tindakan luar kawal. Some may hit and kick the wall, while the other might choose to take those actions on another being.*violent*. Everyone has their own way of expressing themselves, of reacting to situations.

For myself, I don't really hit. Senang cakap, I am not the physical type. But, I might be very. very.very.very. very verbally abusive. Bukanlah lazer that type, but I have the ability to come up with different kinds of foul language. sungguh creative lagi innovative. (english only, melayu sangat kasar)

But that's not the real issue of the post. The issue is, on how we, frequently choose to get mad, choose the reason to get angry, and let the anger take us away, bringing us towards hatred. Towards that little world of detest.

Normally, people would feel soooo hard to forgive and forget. Sebenarnyer, bukan sush nak forgive, nak forget tuh yang susah kan. Orang jarang2 perasan yang dorg tak marah da sebenarnyer, tapi dorg continue to not speaking to that other person sebab teh inability to forget. In other words, berdendam.

This is the hardest thing to change within a being. Sebab itulah juge, it is one of the core of the pitfall of a society. Friends, family. Macam orang cakap "duri dalam daging".

Grudges would not end if, we ourselves do not want it to end. Macam kalo tak kasi peluang pon untuk dendam tuh ilang, cmner dier nak ilang kan? Omputeh cakap, " Where there's a will, there's a way". Maksudnyer, mun kitak sik ada ati mok berubah, sik apat la. mun ada, ada la. (naseb le kome).

Jadi,
bukalah hati-hati yang maseh tertutup tuh. Let's give ourselves a chance to be happy and to let go of the past. Kalo berdendam, mesti rase tak sedap hati. And bile berdendam, akan ade orang yang sdey sbb menerima musibah dendam tersebut... Takkan kite nak happy atas kesedihan orang laen kan?

Alhamdullillah. Syukur.

Finally, a good friend of mine has returned to his old self, back again. ( ke aku jer raser dier laen??)Sangat bersyukur.

Maknenyer, Allah dah makbulkan my daily prayers for all my friends to be my friends forver. :)

Sometimes, I think, we human think too much, when all we should have done is to leave everything to Him. Initially, it was really2 hard for me to let things go between me and this very good friend of mine. The reason was because, he is one of my bestie. Sangat boleh dikatekan rapat yer. He's Mr. R. Kawan maser skolah yang stick smpai da abes skola. I knew him when the both of us were in the drama team. Sangat kelake.

Tuh la lu ni wani, pikir banyak sangat. Mamat tu lek jer, lu smpai pening2. chill suda~

So, I guess what I'm trying to say here is that, thank you dear Lord for everything that You have given me. From this moment onwards, I would really want to lean on You and let things go Your way- tawakal

Kene sound tadi. Sebab comment kat page kak AF tadi. Oh. Dan oh lagi.

Scary? Check!

Pelik? Check!

I mean, it is a place to give comments kan?

Bleh plak sound gue kat situ. Bukan sekadar sound, marah la kirenyer. heh. Apakah la pakcik JOE tuh.

Takper2. We'll see how he replies after this kan.

Kakak saye pon tak marah, anda pule nak marah2 saya. Biar pon anda anak cikgu, your father or mother is still 1 or 2 out of thoussands of teachers taw. Biar pon your mom and dad take their job seriously and professionally, it is still 2 out of thousands of other teachers. So tak boleh nak tak side camtuh jer.

P/S: 1. I'm going to be a teacher in 3 years ye. So, should I take side on the teachers? Tak la! Kalo da salah, mana boleh mengaku betol.

2. Lu nak comment kat page akak wa, sound2 wa sampai akak wa pon trase. Sukasuki dier la nak tulis blog dier cmner, it's HER blog, HER thoughts, HER computer and SHE paid the electricity bill. So ape masalah lu?

3. Lu nak kutuk2 hebat, lu bukak blog sendiri la!

Well, this isn't how I picture my day would be. Sangat tidak.

The day started great with no class at all throughout the day.

Then, I decided to msg those 2 people, bearing in mind that if one of the 2, either one, replies first, he would be the IT. Yes2, I know. sungguh tiada releven. Sebab:

a) Orang A maseh di laut. Walaupon dier suda ade di perairan malaysia and he wakes up early, it would be impossible to get the msg. kot.

b) Orang B ade je kat daratan BUT he cannot be awake at such time. sangat impossible sbb dier memang tido siang. Mcm kelawar.

But, out of the 2, I really thought that the A person would be the one replying sbb smlm bleh jer msg. But, it was B who replied. So, yes, it was a surprise.

Ini yang first of the day.

Then, I did some stalking. yes, sungguh tidak matured lg, dan sangat menyerlahkan ketidak penerimaan kenyataan. Sigh.

Third, orang tuh call kasi taw bende yang tak best pulak. Well, bukan la tak best. It's actually neutral but, maybe because of my immaturity kot yang bende tuh jd tak best. Anyways, that person said, I shouldn't feel that way. I know that too. Tapi tak taw la, this feeling. It stays walaupon I've lepaked with friends and called home.

But I have decided on one thing though. Kalo boleh, I want to be dedicated to my job. Sebab the gov has decided to start teaching Math and Science in BM. AGAIN. I am really3x against this idea, sumer orang pon I think. Anyways, the gov too has good intentions to it. Yela, cikgu pon tak reti nak ajar, cmner nak ajar orang laen? For instance, the teacher can bearly speak and english and she only teaches the basic keywords of the topic to students. How can we expect students to answer those CCTS questions during exams? Eh, membebel plak. Nanti2 la cakap pasal issue ni. But yes, she changed my perception about teachers. Sebb teachers inefficiency in teaching la students are unable to perform. Sudah2, nanti wat post laen.

But anyways, I will be returning to KL this august. Over the weekend jer, sbb during the one-week hols, mom wouldnt be home and it may be possible that she will not be home pon during eid. Sangat sedih.

One day a farmer’s donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the
farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally he decided the animal was old, and the well
needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn’t worth it to retrieve the donkey. He invited all
his neighbors to come over and help him. They each grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well.

At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone’s amazement, he quieted down. A few shovel loads later, the farmer looked down the well, and was astonished at what he saw.

As every shovel of dirt hit his back, the donkey did something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up. As the farmer’s neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal,
he would shake it off and take a step up.

Pretty soon, everyone was amazed, as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and trotted off.

The Moral: My dear friends, life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a stepping stone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up! Never loose hope and place your complete 100% trust in Almighty God as shown in the following story. A true Muslim never gives up hope in the mercy of Allah (swt), because it is a sin.

“No affliction comes about but by Allah’s permission; and whoever believes in Allah,
He guides aright his heart; and Allah is Knower of all things.”
(Holy Qur’an 64:11)

Today we went to one of the local orphanage homes. We had sukaneka and some indoor games. Handling such event for the first time, of course various "problems" occured. But, all in all, I think, it was handled in a manner in which we could be proud of.

Sailu, Tsemin and I were assigned to babysit a team for the sukaneka. Our team's name was "spongebob". There were 5 boys and 5 girls, age ranges from 8-14.Even though it was just a half-a-day activity with them, it was very meaningful. Sangat seronot. I hope to see them again. I think they had fun too. Kot.

And today had made me realised how, there are so many unfortunate children out there. The incident that was very touching was when we were in the bus. Some of them, were sort of like running to the back gate just to wave goodbye to us. sedeyh gile.

Sangat ramai kanak-kanak yang dihantar ke rumah anak-anak yatim ni. Sebenarnya, most of them still have their parents, if not both, one of them. Sebab tak mampu la, dorang kene hanta dkat situ. Memang, if they are given choices, I think they would surely want to stay at home, tp tak sumer yang kite nak is the best for us kan.
Anyways, I think that it is a good thing that we came and visit them today. Orang cakap it's society's responsibility for those in need, but for me, it's not responsibility. It's more of like a family thingy. Maybe because I'me the youngest in the family that I feel attached to younger kids. The children need us. To give them support. and to tell them, that they matters as any other person the the society is. Haish. Poyo betul.

Rules:It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag as many people as you like. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real. If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name : Hazwani
2. A four Letter Word : Heck
3. A boy's Name : Hezri
4. A girl's Name : Helena
5. An occupation : Hacker
6. A color : Hazel
7. Something you'll wear: Heelss
9. A food : Honey
10. Something found in the bathroom: Hot water
11. A place : Holland
12. A reason for being late : preparing for HOSPITALITY
13. Something you'd shout : Hell yeah!
14. A movie title : Home Alone
15. Something you drink : Horlicks
16. A musical group : Handy Black
17. An animal : Horse
18. A street name : Hamilton St.
19. A type of car : Honda
20. The title of a song : Hella good

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