12:37 PM
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Hazwani
We all remember our bedtime stories of our childhood. The shoe that fits Cinderella, the frog that turns into a prince, sleeping beauty is awaken by a kiss...Once upon a time... and they live happily ever after.Fairy tales. The stuff of dreams.The problem is, fairy tales don't come true. It's the other story that begins with a dark and stormy night and ends in the unspeakable. It's the nightmares that take place when we sleep after Subuh, and not those fairy tales. It's the nightmares that seem to become reality.Once upon a time. Happily ever after.The stories we tell are the stuff of dreams. The stories we tell our children about life is the stuff of dreams. Fairy tales don't come true. Reality is much stormier. Much murkier. Much scarier. And reality is all what life is all about.Reality is much more interesting than living happily ever after.
9:03 AM
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Hazwani
"The whole art of teaching is only the art of awakening the natural curiosity of young minds for the purpose of satisfying it afterwards." -Anatole France
Intially, I thought that I would hate this course. I mean, I did say last time that I WILL NOT be a teacher. But then, it is true that inspiration only comes after we've started. So yeah, I am enjoying this course. The lecturers, the course itself, and the people who are in this course together with me.
So, today to all teachers in the world, who have contributed in numeraous fields of education,
Happy Teachers Day!
The mediocre teacher tells. The good teacher explains. The superior teacher demonstrates. The great teacher inspires. -William Arthur Ward
7:37 PM
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Hazwani
Tak paham. Sangat tak paham.I think he's angry with me, but I dont know the reason. I tried confronting him, saying"If there's anything bothering him about me, just let me know. Kawan kan. No hard feelings la pon..."He just replied, "K". Even the fullstop wasn't there. Initially he did say that he have been busy la. Got tons of stuff to do. That one, I can't really kacau la.But somehow, I know he's somewhat pissed with me or something. Nak tanye lebey2 lagi, nanti dier ckp Im such a pushy and I dont want that.Tp friendship la. That's the most important thing. Dier nak marah2 pon, marah la depan2. When things like this happen and I dont know the reasons for his irritation, jadi tak sedap hati la. Kawan bukan sebulan dua. Almost 3 years dah.
So, what Im going to do now, is I will give him time. Tak taw la smpai bile, but I will let him have some space. Kalo dier tamau kawan da, or continue ignoring me, I will say sorry for the wrong stuffs I've done unconciously. Brape lame ni? Hadoi.
8:46 PM
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Hazwani
Just noticed that I've been tagged by Wafa.*rindu geng kite*.Tag ni untuk kawan2, untuk release exam stress kite k.So here goes.1. Apakah nama blog anda sekarang dan kenapakah anda memilih nama tersebut?"Cloudburst and Morass" Tgk dictionary definition of cloudburst, then relate dgn morass. Saye suke nature.2. Apakah link blog anda sekarang dan bagaimana boleh timbul idea untuk menamakannya seperti itu?"http://ther-murmur.blogspot.com"
Sebenarnyer, huruf 'r' in 'ther', tersalah eja. Supposedly, THE-MURMUR. Tp tereja lebih arituh.You should know what murmur means. rite?3. Apakah method dalam bentuk penulisan blog anda?1. Luahan rasa2. Karya2 seni yang never made it to books and mags.3. Nasihat/peringatan kepada diri dan orang sekeliling, dalam situasi yg same.4. Everyday, random events.4. Pernah rasa nak hapuskan blog anda? Kenapa?Nope. I love writing. Walaupun aku taw, I suck at it.5. Apakah pendapat anda terhadap blog kepada orang yang tag anda ini?Wafa's?Banyak luahan rase. I think, to her, blogging is to share her thoughts and also a form of emotional release. Begitulah.6. Calons tag anda.dibayani kecikribyazreeeenmachni mazlan
1:23 AM
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Hazwani
Exams' in less than 10 days and yes, this isn't studying.
10:17 AM
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Hazwani
At 08:32 this morning, I received a message. I was still asleep because I slept quite late last night. (05:50 is late O.K). But, I woke up and replied the text messages.WHOOOSE day is it TODAY?Hahaha.Oi, jawablah.Haha. mine.Apu..Yes, it is YOUR day! But from what is sounds, it's more like my day. Keep it up! Hope u have a miserable day! May every person ruin it for you! Thank you for making YOUR day MY day!Haha. its MY day la.Betul tu... So, don't let any1 else steal it or ruin it. It's the day for every1, every sad memory, every depressing moment to kiss your butt. K!Heh. yes! thanx g!*Ok. Grace asked me to play this game. Im in this game where I've to draw a day. From Mon to Sun, and unfortunately, I got Monday. So today, I've to forget all unhappy moments that I've had over the years, and be extremely happy. In other words, I have to BE HAPPY and no crying can happen on my day. (Coincedently "my day" = "monday")Soooooooo fortunate to have friends.
3:34 AM
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Hazwani
8:44 AM
as told by
Hazwani
Some bitterness in life wont kill you. It makes you better, healthier. Macam ulam(Me, 2009).It has been long and I think that I am already forgotten. I really hope I can make it.No one said that things would go easy. I mean I knew that it was a risk actually. Everything that we do everyday involves taking risks. It is either we realized it or not. Anyhow, its how we get through it. How we do things. How we handle them.And for me, I've taken things very lightly and here I am todayI admit that they are not easy to deal with. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't concerntrate. It is very hard. This thing that Im dealing with, is so hard. I might take time to heal from the wound, but I will get better.Many told me that things happened because of certain reasons and that God has planned everything. They tell me that, He wouldnt test us unless we can handle it. People told me that, good will come after this misery. Because it wont continue raining and stormy. Because the sun will come out and the rainbow will appear. But for the moment, I am still hurt. the pain is excruciating. the pain is so deep, I dont think that I've started to heal. The pain is too deep that it reaches the heart. That I feel so painful in the heart.Not that I dont want to heal, I want to. But sometimes, I doubt that I can.I have my family.I have my caring friends.I have nz waiting for my arrival next feb.I have my whole future ahead of me.I have lots of things that I can do in life.I have people who want me. Screw everything. I'm moving on!
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Im gonna go with Mai's suggestion starting today. That is, Im gonna have a studying timetable. 2 hours for each time of the day. E.g.: 2 hours in the morning, afternoon and at night. Sebab, if I dont have this timetable, I'll be drifted by my silly emotions. So much of emotional intelligence.
Sh*t. I only have two weeks left.
Serabut gile post ni. Haih. Sorry.
