Living underwater.

truth hurts.yeah.and im selfish.i kno.
i hate to admit it, yeah, only those who really knows who i am , know that im selfish

sigh.

then comes that other guy whom i dont need to mention.

arrgh.i hate it.and i hate it very much

i dun feel right you know.
i've had loads of things coming, happening to me diz week
the tonnes of assgnments and everything

and, yesh, my relationship.
sumtimes i feel like as if its about to crack.with everyone.
i mean,i do love but when things go wrong i felt very distant.parted.

wut do you do when things feel like they went wrong?
i tried to fix and make the best of it coz i kno i love.
i love.i do and forever will.
but as i always remind myself to, things dont always go our way.
my way, actually.

sigh.im in deep shit actually. about everything.
i kno that i couldnt live wihout it/him/her.
but, wht if things go really wrong and that other person is the one who took the deceision?
n, im the one who tried to protect this relationship, get dumped??get abandoned at the end of the day??

i hope that he/she/ it would help me.pls.this is like the matter of what is important.
n believe me, i'd risk everything for something that i love

farhan said " im not a fighter, a lover but i'll fight for wut i love"
i said, " i will too. forever and always."

p/s: with the people that loves me too. and i do love u. him especially.

sorry for not writing a few days. The days have been very packed and tiring.

on monday, i was still inmy hols mood and was unable to do anething but regret that i've not finished my assgnments. but. luckily, i've finished my l dev already. just the 2nd essay of es and descp.

on tuesday, i had my forum. it went sorta ok la.not really super good.....we were lack of eye contact and did not engage with the audience. this is new bah to us. so i think tt its time to blaja la...then, at night, we had the futsal tournament. my team is the black hawk.the only tesl student who sent a team. adoi. we played against KDPM Kemas 2008 and in the end, it was a draw...1-1..
and today, was very sad.we lost to another KDPM kemas. but this is the senior team..2-1.. sdey douh..adoi..

you know, i think that we want something so badly, we wont get it.

but, come to think of it, takkan la nak masuk compt tanak menang kan??

adoi...i think i did want to win so badly. but when we lost, sedey gle la bah...........

is it a sign from God or something?

another thing is that, i noticed bah, that i can join a lot of things; basketball,vball,ftsal...but, i can't never be REALLY good at it. which makes me feel like pulling put on everything.

i mean, is it worth it?

you've like spent a lot of time in it, but you cant never be really good at it. bkan diz time jak bah, b4 ni pon cm ya juak.frustration overcomes my mood to finish the assgnments.haih.